Journey of feelings

During this season, the holy spirit has been showing me that I need to unpack and work through my emotions with his help. I don’t know where it came from, but I have stuffed or ignored my emotions so much that I don’t even know what sad feels like.  I knew anger very well.

Thinking that as a Christian, I just need to forgive and let go. Our emotions were God given and the only way to true healing is to acknowledge your feelings and surrender them to God. Only he can truly take it away, but first we must face them and know that it is okay to FEEL.

People don’t need to feel guilty for their feelings. God wired us so that our brain sends emotion signals for us to pay attention to something going on inside.

Lately, whether it’s a Christian counselor or therapist, a lot of the healing begins as going back to a past memory and then discovering what the emotion is and then working through it to change your response to that uncomfortable memory. From this meditative exercise, I have been able to unblock certain pain areas from my past. It definitely has affected my dreams as well, but again that is how your mind processes.

I’m starting to understand what feeling upset and sad means for me and it has been liberating to be able to acknowledge the reason. It also takes the fear out of expressing this emotion and not having to be passive aggressive about things.

I love how I stumbled upon this youtube msg today…

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Painting his love

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I find painting very relaxing. Typically art and creativity has worked hand in hand for me to relieve emotions and stress. I started to try watercoloring, which is actually pretty difficult. With acrylic paint, I tend to just wing it and paint with intuition.

God’s love has been somewhat pretty ambiguous for me to grasp in real life. I read about it all the time, but it was very hard to translate from the critical and affirmation withheld upbringing.  I was reading about God’s fiery love and when Brian Simmons contrasted it with a holy volcano and lava of his love in The Sacred Journey. I just felt like it was such a strong image I must translate into a painting.

There are so many dimensions of God’s love and for us to understand, it would probably take a lifetime. Just thinking about the flow of lava and how it can engulf a large area is inconceivable. It leaves me with a desire to soak in his purifying love.

Sometimes doing these creative personal projects helps me to embrace his love and spend quality time with Abba. This is the only reason how this piece manifested. I prayed and ask him to paint with me.

“Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men”(Colossians 3:23).

How do you spend time with our heavenly father?

Being at Rest

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Why is it that rest is the almost the last thing we find helpful during stressful situations?

Resting is not something we need to feel guilty about. There are *72 verses in the bible about rest. I think it is quite important and God’s been kinda, maybe not kinda, but completely reminding me over and over since 2015. Do I listen? Sometimes…I surrender it to God and then something in the natural will happen to challenge my faith about the very thing I have placed at the throne. So then I find myself not at rest but spiraling and not trusting what God has promised to pass.

Rest: Google Definition

1. cease work or movement in order to relax, refresh oneself, or recover strength.
2. be placed or supported so as to stay in a specified position. ( Wow! That is where God wants us)

 

God wants his princes and princesses at rest. Why? How else can we allow the King to shine in our circumstances and then we have an “out of this world” experiences to pump others up. It requires building of faith while keeping the hope alive for ourselves. And with that we can ignite fires in others.

In peace I will both lie down and sleep, For You alone, O LORD, make me to dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8

Then you would trust, because there is hope; And you would look around and rest securely. You would lie down and none would disturb you, And many would entreat your favor. Job 11:18-19

I’ve had this in my heart to share and I honestly kept delaying, but I feel I have to release this now!

At the very core, Jesus left us with his sweet peace, so let’s hold onto that.

Peace I leave with you; My [perfect] peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. [Let My perfect peace calm you in every circumstance and give you courage and strength for every challenge.] John 14:27

However sometimes when fail to rest while we are awake, God comes in through our dreams when our body and minds can be quiet for him to work and process our emotions and thoughts with his truths.

Sometimes I always compare myself to being a Martha instead of a Mary. Luckily Abba is so patient. I’ve had dreams where I’m at a personal spa the Lord has prepared, nothing else, but misty water and a beautiful bathtub with overflowing of water. I know in these instances, he is wooing me to a place of rest.

Remember the more we resist to surrender, the more time and energy we waste. Our bodies definitely take a toll as well. We could easily be resting to allow Abba Daddy to shine. He is already carrying us through our trials, we have to rest to be able to absorb his love and care.

*https://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Rest,-Physical

Basic Dream Mapping

I had gone to a dream interpretation class with Stacy Brittain a couple years ago and basically learned this simple method after journaling down all the details of your dream, to extract the MOST important symbols or detail. Pay attention to your emotions you felt in the dream as this is KEY to interpreting your dream.

Here is a good site for reference as well to help on your dream journey: http://dreamsandmysteries.com/.

Just to help to understand mapping the dream, here is a sample dream:

I had a dream where I saw myself in third person perspective. I went to a church and saw my mom with my pastor and it seemed like another woman. I was barefoot and she laid her hands on my left barefoot saying that I will have a daughter.

First pick a title for your dream.  Ex. Praying over my barefoot

Then figure out who was the main character of your dream. Were you first person in the dream? Were you watching something like a movie without you in it? This indicates what/who this dream was about.  Ex. I was watching a dream about myself

Who is the main character: Ex. Myself

What other symbols or details really popped out to you in the dream and why? (your emotions to the symbol can indicate whether it is positive or negative. It can be as many as you feel is fit. Ex. Symbols: barefoot (need more preparation), praying (comissioning), left (spiritual). daughter (female ministry) 

How did you feel when you woke up? You can jot down around your dream map to remind you how to tie it in to your whole dream map.

Here is just a simple dream map to get you started.

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Interpretation of sample dream: Personally when I woke up I felt a lil unsure and excited. Basically everyone in my dream was female and my pastor was commissioning me to do some sort of female ministry. She was praying over my left leg meaning I still had some preparation to do for the spiritual side before I could start. 

There could be different scenes in your dreams. You may have to map each scene separately. Don’t forget to ask God for discernment and if you are still stuck, bring it the Lord and maybe he will bring someone to help you interpret or it will come to you at a later date. There are times when I journaled and dream mapped, came back to a later date, read it and totally understood it.

Hope this was helpful and if you have any suggestions on what you have done in dream mapping, please comment below!

Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3

 

 

Reaching Out

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This morning I had a super jumbled dream with lots of details. One of the things that I have been learning is sometimes I will dream of someone and it is the holy spirit prompting me to reach out to that person.

People in your dreams can symbolize aspects of yourself but 4 people I had dreamed about, I have reached out to and they were all in a sad or depressed state.

This morning in my dream, I sensed my friend was crying in a bathroom. This prompted me to send her a txt msg after I woke up. Indeed she replied that she was crying and sad yesterday because of her father’s passing last month. Sometimes God uses my dreams to send a msg to people that he sees their tears and he knows.

Isn’t that awesome? He reaches his people through other people. It’s very interesting when it’s people that I haven’t spoken to in a while, sometimes years.

Dreams are foggy

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My Journey

I have a lot of dreams all my life since I could remember.

While growing up in my childhood home, I had a lot of scary dreams and dark dreams, where I couldn’t turn on the light. I would wake up within a dream and still not be able to turn on the light. I felt like Joseph while growing up as well and there was definitely a lot of strife within my household.

Once I was told in 2010, that I was a seer: a person who hears from the Lord through pictures, dreams, and visions. I had no idea that this was possible. That God would communicate with me all my life through my dreaming.

When we look in the bible, Samuel was a seer. (Formerly in Israel, if someone went to inquire of God, they would say, “Come, let us go to the seer,” because the prophet of today used to be called a seer.) 1 Samuel 9:9

This is when my journey started to deepen with the Lord.

7 years later, my dreams have healed me, brought me to people in need, and definitely shown me what a personal God he can be. That is such a beautiful thing. Sometimes he just leaves me speechless and I want to share with everyone and help them interpret their dreams too!

This is the birth of why I’ve started my blog and perhaps I will move on to vlogging as well as I feel the Lord’s leading.

You Too

Maybe you are on this page, because you dream too, but you don’t remember them. I encourage you to simply get a journal, cell phone with an voice memo app, or something similar and start jotting down dreams you have! Once you start paying attention your dream, start asking God to help you find the interpretation you need.

Next, I can start showing you simple dream mapping on how to go beyond journaling your dreams to extract the main details. This can help strip away unnecessary elements and bring CLARITY.